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Friday, September 09, 2005

This is *shO* scary!!

I was at orchard with my friend aaron today around 1:30pm

yup. 30mins after this woman's head and limb was found outside the orchard mrt station.. but thats not the scary thing.. cuz obviously, me being Mildred Oblivious Yuen didn't notice anything, despite walking back and forth the taka-mrt underpass a few times.. i only caught it on the news when i got home just now..

so what was i doing in orchard. well i had a huge break at school and i needed to get my bro's bday present (decided on some gameboy advance game).. and aaron, being the horrible friend he is, bought me haagen dazs' vanilla caramel brownie ice cream cuz he thought i was mad (as in angry).. just cuz i wore a baseball hat today. Now i have to go running again. *pout* (but thanks :>)

But what was *shO* scary?!!

well i wanted to call my mom and ask for her opinion and, for some weird ass reason, decided to punch in the numbers myself instead of using my phonebook.. and i accidentally punched in 2 wrong numbers.. but nvm cuz no one picked up.. after awhile this dude calls me up demanding to know who i am.. and i obviously dont talk to strangers abt personal info *curtsey* so i was like:

me: "hello??! you called ME"
him: "no i have ur number, who're you?!"
"it doesnt matter, i didnt call YOU"
"but u did! i have ur number now!"
" well i dont know you so hang up"
"i know! but i wanna know you! who're you?"
"im... ... ...a girl."
(for lack of a better word. but in retrospect, i shoulda said boy.)
"i know! thats why i wanna..."

*i hang up*

oh well just some despo wrong number caller right?

Wrong.

3:23pm SMS1: “Take care and have a nice day :)”
and im thinkin: aww.. thats dumb, but sweet.. but of course im just gonna leave it.

4:03pm SMS2: “Can i make frend wit u???”
and im thinkin: OMG! You cheesy ass frienster freak! people like u shouldnt even pick up the phone!!

16:09pm SMS3: “Don be like this lah,,,, i don know why jus now ur number appear on my hp thats why i sms u loh... im an indonesian, now on board going back batam... pls reply whether can make frend wit u o not ok?”
and im thinkin: aww man.. it IS my fault for dialing wrong.. (my friend's laughing his balls off by now, saying i should be mean and reply back something nasty) but im thinkin.. he's indonesian leh... i shouldnt make fun of him *muahaha*

7:22pm SMS4 (int'l number): “Alo how r u???have u eaten?”

i replied: "Sorry you are?" (not realising that it may POSSIBLY be the same person)

8:14pm SMS5: "Im the guy who really wan to make frend wit u.... r u single?"

AHHH!!!!!!!
It's times like these when i really wish i wasn't!!!!!
People out there are psychotic!!!

girlnumber20 @ 8:23 AM | |

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Why do i blog? It used to be cuz everyone else did.. then i started revealing bits of myself in the hype of being semi-mysterious (the everyone-has-a-secret theory). Now i wish i had a blog that no one reads.. so i could really write what i have to without the whole world watching.

So i guess i have to write with the general public in mind, instead of myself.. and that includes a whole range of people that either care too much or not at all. Either way they all judge. I'm not saying it's necessarily a bad thing. I'm just saying we all do it, to some degree or another, we judge people. Why do we do that?

girlnumber20 @ 6:54 PM | |

Slit my heart and take yourself out

But wait till I'm asleep

So it wouldn't hurt so much

'Cause I'm not dead yet, just weak.

girlnumber20 @ 8:59 AM | |

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Just like I predicted
We're at the point of no return
We can't go backwards, and all corners have been turned
I can't control it if I sink or if I swim
'Cause I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference,
Who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

If it's not what you're made of,
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable, to give me anymore
There's no way
You're changing
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time, but it's alright.

I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing
I doubt you ever, put your heart in anything
It's not much to ask for
To get back what I put in
But I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

If it's not what you're made of,
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable, to give me anymore
There's no way
You're changing
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time, but it's alright.

What's your definition of the one
What do you really want him to become
No matter what I sacrifice it's still never enough

Just like I predicted
I will sink before I swim
'Cause these are the waters that I'm in

Isn't it tacky, irrational and sickening sometimes when you think every song you hear is about you?

girlnumber20 @ 9:58 PM | |

Don't pretend you weren't wondering..

Birthdate: 9 July 1984

msn: daydream247@hotmail.com

email: extraordinarymil@gmail.com

If you're my aquaintance and 'heard' frm somewhere that I 'look' Chinese but 'fake' an accent or something, I will explain now (though it's never once and for all): I'm an American born Chinese, my parents are Hongkongers. I was born in Chicago, raised in Hongkong till I was 5, moved to Boca Raton, Florida and stayed till I was 11, moved to Trophy Club, Texas and stayed till i was 13, moved to Singapore and have stayed there since. Throughout my preschool-univeristy life i have attended 13 schools so far. Was it tough? did it make me bitter? I dont think so, ask any of my friends.. or try and find someone who hates me.. *wink*