Literally PINK....and its deeper than you think ;)

Wednesday, July 30, 2003

I GOT INTO KENT RIDGE HALL!!!!
I'M SO ABSOLUTELY ECSTATIC RIGHT NOW!!!!
IT'S LIKE THE HAPPIEST ACCEPTANCE LETTER I'VE GOTTEN IN THE PAST 7 MONTHS!
WHOOPDEEDOO!
CLUBBING, HERE I COME!

girlnumber20 @ 8:28 AM | |

Saturday, July 26, 2003

i just watched a canto flick called Twelve Nights starring Cecilia Cheung and Eason Chan.. and as i was watching and listening to how my parents criticize the girl and jokingly ask me whether i'd be as stupid as her.. i realized that i was exactly like her.. from the way she treats her boyfriends.. to how she she breaks up with them.. how she thinks she was right and they just didnt appreciate her.. to how she deals with her ex's.. her final self-analysis - that the problem really lied in her - was uncanningly easy to relate to..

films like these make u think... is it time that i realise something about myself?
no, rather it's obviously time i realised something abt myself.. but what exactly? im getting close to it.. i recognise the traits.. but i cant put a finger on it.. like trying to catch your own shadow

girlnumber20 @ 7:20 AM | |

Thursday, July 24, 2003

They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway

Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
'Cause she's got nowhere to go

And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying
Nothing's changing anyway

They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway

And you know I see right through you
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screamin'
You're not listening anyway

MUSICiLIKE: "Acoustic #3" - Goo Goo Dolls

girlnumber20 @ 7:25 AM | |

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

I go to NUS quite often nowadays.. and even though i know that 95 comes so much less frequent than 96, I always take 95 from Buona Vista and not 96 from Clementi.. i dont know abt the rest of you.. but i like stopping at Buona Vista.. feels homey.. and i love it when the bus passes by ACJC.. it's nostalgic.. almost cathartic.. (im not sure whether is REALLY is.. haha) and everytime i pass by.. a particular piece of it would catch my eye.. be it the track.. the uniform.. the canteen.. the gates.. the colours.. and via a string of mental associations, a particular fragment of school life would be replayed in my head.. like spoiler clips from a tv show.. tdy it was the students walking outta school at 12nn with pink slips in thier hands... heh.. and i remembered all the times when serene and i - two perfectly healthy girls- called cheng cheng outta the staff room and convinced her that we're 'not feeling too well'..

cheng: so how do u girls feel?
us: um.. bad..
cheng: fever..
serene: uh yeah. actually i had one last night.. *cough* and a bit of sore throat..
cheng: oh dear.. u mil? fever too?
me: uh no.. *squints..* my head's kinda..
cheng: headache? dizzy?
me: yeah yeah.. and i feel a bit pukey too..*bleah*
cheng: all right.. call ur mothers
(2mins later)
us: our moms not picking up the phone.. but we left a msg *big grinz*
cheng: *rolls eyes*
me: but come on! im ALWAYS in school!!
(cheng hands us these)

"mildred felicia yuen is excused to go home due to extreme giddiness and migraine attacks"

ser: so mil.. u wanna go town or holland v??

haha..

girlnumber20 @ 6:43 AM | |

Tuesday, July 22, 2003

Boy am i in deep shit now.. sometimes i wonder whether God wants me to go to university at all.. if He does.. why the heck is everything going wrong?!
(in reverse chronological order)
i missed the student exchange program deadline
i dont get my hostel room
my transcripts that creffield 'sent' for me was never received by the US universities
my dad keeps being this big buffer between what i want and where i am

and just when i thot that going to NUS would placate all my probs (for the time being anyway), i dropped another bomb on myself today.. purely cause i was too careless when reading the Freshman guide.. (and before u start lecturing me, i've really had enough of it from my folks already.. thanks)

i just realised that PR's, should we take up the MOE tuition grant loan, have to be bonded to work in s'pore for 3 years! and if i reject the bond anytime btw now and graduation i'd have to repay everything... which sucks cuz i was only plannin on being here for 1 year.. im supposed to transfer to US next year! and if i DONT apply for the MOE tuition grant, i'll have to pay $19,350 per year instead of $5,650 per year!!! *grrrR*... shit just loves coming in one piece after another..

ugh... is this some sorta 'sign'?? directing me to what?! what the heck am i supposed to do?!! REALITY BITES!

oh.. and just to be fair.. my ICQ is working again.. can't believe writing into ICQhelp actually delivered some response..
BUT THAT IS NO COMPENSATION FOR THE $13,700 PIECE OF SHIT I FOUND OUT TDY!

girlnumber20 @ 5:30 AM | |

Saturday, July 19, 2003

ICQ is being an ass.. to me anyway..
its not working!! like im "logged on" and "online" but i cant SEE anyone else online!
(and i KNOW there's gotta be some cyber soul online..)
i've already tired reinstalling.. this sucks..
Somebody HELP me!! ANYBODY!!!

girlnumber20 @ 9:08 AM | |

Thursday, July 17, 2003

Answer:

Does he love me, I wanna know
how can I tell if he loves me so?
(Is it in his eyes) oh no you'll be deceived
(is it in his sighs) oh no he'll make believe.
If you wanna know (shoop shoop shoop shoop
shoop shoop shoop) if he loves you so
it's in his kiss (that's where ist is oh yeah).

(Or is it in his face) oh no it's just his charms
(in his warm embrace) oh no that's just his arms.
If you wanna know (shoop shoop shoop shoop
shoop shoop shoop) if he loves you so
it's in his kiss (that's where it is)
woh-oh it's in his kiss (that's where it is).

Chorus:
Woh-oh-oh hug him and squeeze him tight
and find out what you want to know.
If it's love if it really is it's there in his kiss.
(How 'bout the way he acts) oh no that's not the way
and you're not listening to all I say.
If you wanna know (shoop shoop shoop shoop
shoop shoop shoop shoop) if he loves you so
it's in his kiss (that's where it is)
woh-oh it's in his kiss (that's where it is).

MUSICiLIKE: "The Shoop Shoop Song" - Cher

girlnumber20 @ 1:40 AM | |

Wednesday, July 09, 2003

HappY BirthDay to ME!!

hehe.. just came back from my first day of being 19... gifts, flowers, coffee, friends, french cuisine, designer pizzas, *tattoos*, smses, calls... hey! it REALLY wasnt so bad! hahaha.. i could get used to this..

10am: "Breakfast at Spinelli's" - though Jen and Zhen's mommies wouldnt let em out before their flight to bali.. Ser (who's transformed from sarong-girl to aussie-punk..) and shasha and i still had a fun and yummy breakfast.. thanks for always being there for me, babes.. no matter what i cant face or how ecstatic abt something/one i am *hehe*.. you're always there to share it with me.. Parting is envitable one day.. but when it comes.. i hope we wont grow too far apart.. cuz friends like u are hard to find.. and friendships like ours are irreplaceable.. *hugz*

1pm: "Funky pizza at Spizza" - a lil RG reunion with Mira, Rox and Lihong... great friends.. how do i know? they're the ones that i can not talk to for 2 years and pick right back up from the same giggly place we left off frm.. anytime.. thanks for meeting me today.. it meant alot.. with all of us going all over the place.. i wonder when we'll ever do it again.. but mira..u still owe my my yellow sweater.. *hehehe*

5pm: "Finally free to act spastic.." - had dinner at Maison Basque with my laughing toots Nat, Lynn and Aaron... Thank you aaron for watching us shop for dresses and carrying all my collection of presents (to the extent where i kept freaking myself out thinking that i left em somewhere.. im not used to such service, heh) and thank you lynn and nat for the beautiful glitter tattoo that i now have on my left ankle *yippie* hehe.. i have so much fun with you guys..im grateful for every nonsensical thing we say and do to knock each other out in laughter.. hope we'll always get along so well *muackz*

Good night, world... i love you.. regardless of all the other nasty, wicked, boring, bitchy and bastardly people u sustain.. im grateful for all the wonderful people who love me.. and looking back all the things i've done over the past few years.. both the silly and beautiful things.. and whether they turned out for better or for worse.. i dont regret a moment of it.. they all fit snuggly in the pages of my autobiography :).. im glad that i've seen, done and felt whatever i have so far.. and here's wishing all the best to the star of my show *grinz*.. sweet dreams..

girlnumber20 @ 9:12 AM | |

Sunday, July 06, 2003

i am PRETTY mad right now.. and u would be too if your blog got redirected to some porn site....

seriously.. i type in http://www.pretendreality.blogspot.com and i got some real gross threesome pic.. SOMEONE's been screwing ard with my blog.. (and the only person who knows my password is NAT! ha!)

but it's ok when i type in http://pretendreality.blogspot.com .. that's just wierd.. i hope it goes away soon *sniff*
this izzit fair!!

girlnumber20 @ 7:44 AM | |

Which [Smallville] Characters are you?

Heh.. so i took this off dan's site.. but i really sat through the quiz okay?? haha
just had our sec 4 reunion dinner last night at nydc.. and the first thing lizzy said was that i reminded her of lana lang! LA-NA LANG!! woohoo.. that made my night... haha

girlnumber20 @ 5:41 AM | |

Friday, July 04, 2003

Song at Carnagie's last night....

when i was young i knew everything
she a punk who rarely ever took advice
now i'm guilt stricken, sobbing with my head on the floor
stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice

i can't be held responsible
cause she was touching her face
i won't be held responsible
she fell in love in the first place

for the life of me i cannot remember
what made us think that we were wise
and we'd never comprimise
for the life of me i cannot believe
we'd ever die for these sins
we were merely freshman

my best friend took a week's vacation to forget her
his girl took a week's worth of valium and slept
and now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his head on the floor
think's about her now and how he never really wept he says

i can't be held responsible
cause she was touching her face
i won't be held responsible
she fell in love in the first place

for the life of me i cannot remember
what made us think that we were wise
and we'd never comprimise
for the life of me i cannot believe
we'd ever die for these sins
we were merely freshman

we've tried to wash our hands off all of this
we never talk of our lacking relationships
and how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our heads on the floor
we fell through the ice when we tried not to slip, we'd say

i can't be held responsible
cause she was touching her face
i won't be held responsible
she fell in love in the first place...

MUSICiLIKE: "The Freshman" - Verve Pipe

Just came back home frm 4 days of NUS Arts Camp... totally exhausted (went clubbing last night but still had to wake up at 7:30 this morning, k?!) but i guess i really enjoyed myself.. though i signed up late and didnt get to be in the same grp as Zhen, Jen and Cat.. i met new pple.. Jinling frm RGS was in my OG.. so i joined her CJ kaki haha.. Hildra and Vivian, you were great!! See all of you in school!!

Shoobiez! hehehe thanks for the cybertip.. i'll keep it in mind! better late than nE-ver...

Ooh - and Happy Independence Day, "my fellow Americans"... *kehehehe*

girlnumber20 @ 6:20 AM | |

Don't pretend you weren't wondering..

Birthdate: 9 July 1984

msn: daydream247@hotmail.com

email: extraordinarymil@gmail.com

If you're my aquaintance and 'heard' frm somewhere that I 'look' Chinese but 'fake' an accent or something, I will explain now (though it's never once and for all): I'm an American born Chinese, my parents are Hongkongers. I was born in Chicago, raised in Hongkong till I was 5, moved to Boca Raton, Florida and stayed till I was 11, moved to Trophy Club, Texas and stayed till i was 13, moved to Singapore and have stayed there since. Throughout my preschool-univeristy life i have attended 13 schools so far. Was it tough? did it make me bitter? I dont think so, ask any of my friends.. or try and find someone who hates me.. *wink*