Literally PINK....and its deeper than you think ;)

Monday, May 26, 2003

hey.. did anyone else's "template" disappear???

girlnumber20 @ 6:55 AM | |

Sunday, May 25, 2003

Mil plays with digital camera today.... look

girlnumber20 @ 6:23 AM | |

Saturday, May 24, 2003

Operator, well could you help me place this call?
See, the number on the matchbook is old and faded.
She's living in L. A. with my best old ex-friend Ray,
A guy she said she knew well and sometimes hated.

Isn't that the way they say it goes? Well, let's forget all that
And give me the number if you can find it,
So I can call just to tell 'em I’m fine and to show
I've overcome the blow, I’ve learned to take it well --
I only wish my words could just convince myself
That it just wasn't real, but that's not the way it feels.

MUSICiLIKE: "Operator" -- Jim Croce (I'm so happy i finally found this song..)

I don't why i keep posting lyrics up.. perhaps its laziness.. but i just feel like it ;P

girlnumber20 @ 1:11 AM | |

Friday, May 23, 2003

Trying to catch your heart
Is like trying to catch a star
So many people love you baby
That must be what you are

Waiting for a star to fall
And carry your heart into my arms
That's where you belong
In my arms baby, yeah

MUSICiLIKE: "Waiting for a Star to Fall" -- Boy Meets Girl

girlnumber20 @ 5:54 AM | |

Thursday, May 22, 2003

You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Wow.. im a supposed Neo.. I really didn't cheat but i really dont think im all that he is...the selfless part is true but not the "failure is not an option" part.. i can fail.. infact ive failed so many times it would be such a disgusting lie should i boast that it's "not an option" for me... plus, i LIKE Neo.. i didn't wanna *BE* him!!... i wanted to be Trinity *pout* ( , " )

girlnumber20 @ 9:54 AM | |

Tuesday, May 20, 2003

Tonight's one of those nights where i feel like fuck.
(but for some reason typing that made me feel kinda better..)

i just cant do anything i wanna do! and people around me are just fuckin irritating, in the way, and full of crap!!!~ and the only place where i can slip past all thier naggy asses is this little 3" X 12" white box on the screen!.. how pathetic is that!??!! my life just doesnt work!!! and I know im not pms-sing cuz i was at it LAST weeK.

i hate these 6 months: NOTHING good has come of it but confusion, chaos, awkwardness, insanity, uncertainty, anxiousness, "intangible-ness" and juz fuckin pissed-off-with-everything-ness!! What the fuck is goin on??!? What am i supposed to doOoOo?! Why does everything seem so wrong?!! How come all of a sudden everything is so hard to get?! and why the fuckin hell is the shit grass looking so much damn greener on the other side - ALL the time?!?! I am so SICK of hearing pple go "well, welcome to the real world!" Enough of your grandpa lessons already!

i need a breather.. seriously.. i just want to take a FEW days off in bali.. WITH my friends.. but i shoulda known better than to even think abt it.. cuz ASKING to go on a THREE day vacation results in a discussion of issues abt college ACCEPTANCE .. and why i wanna quit my JOB.. RESPONSIBILTY..."well, welcome to the REAL world" dampers.. lalaLA.. and to my dad trying to make me go to this SHIT ASS school... I feel like grabbing my passport and disappearing.. or tour tan tock seng hospital for 5 hours and maybe hope to be reincarnated into a Male Chauvinst PIG cuz they always get what they want!

WOULD SOMEONE HAVE ME KIDNAPPED AND TAKEN TO THE MOON!?!!....please..

yeah i KNOW i said all that stuff abt natural highs a few entries ago.. i still mean it.. but none of those are HAPPENING...

girlnumber20 @ 8:47 AM | |

Sunday, May 18, 2003

Wow! i cooked dinner tonight!! i first time since.... probably a long time ago! haha borrowed nat's beef stew recipie.. and i must say.. im pretty proud of myself.. and aaron cant limit my abilities to omlettes anymore.. HA!!

Went to "Serene and Darren's Birthday Bash" last night.. haha the two of them are incredibly meant for each other.. well minus the beginning when Darren came late and Ser was like whopping mad.. but rmb the part when something dropped on ser's foot? darren rushed to his sweetie's side faster than an ambulance..hahaha Zhen and i were pretty much no help ard the pit so we went to play on the swings... yup, it felt like we were 10 again.. it was awesome.. Sam, Shasha and Ken were there too... i wonder when we'll have a gathering like this again... Zhen and I played the drinking game.. i wasnt that bad right? but i still came out looking 10 times more flushed than zhen.. so i guess i lost *heh* even though i already cheated a couple times with virgin orange juice..

girlnumber20 @ 6:28 AM | |

Friday, May 16, 2003

Here's a story i heard from Sam :)

A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not knowing what to do.

One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than ever.

Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: "Let's play hide and seek!"
All of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: "I want to count, I want to count!"

And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek Madness, all the others agreed.

Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: "One, two, three..."

As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding.

Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon, Treason hid in a pile of garbage. Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the centre of the earth.

Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking.

And Madness continued to count: "...seventy nine, eighty, eighty one..."
By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden - except Love. For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide Love.

Madness: "...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven..." Just when Madness got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where he hid.

And Madness turned around and shouted: "I'm coming, I'm coming!"

As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because Laziness had no energy to hide.

Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake and Passion at the centre of the earth.

One by one, Madness found them all - except Love. Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love.

Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness: "You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose bush."

Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose bush. Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop.

Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands. Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes. Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a pitch fork.

"What have I done! What have I done!" Madness shouted. "I have left you blind! How can I repair it?"

And Love answered: "You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide."

And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness.

girlnumber20 @ 9:32 PM | |

Thursday, May 15, 2003

"If ever you're in my arms again
This time I'll love you much better
If ever you're in my arms again
This time I'll hold you forever
This time will never end"

girlnumber20 @ 5:27 AM | |

Wednesday, May 14, 2003

50 NATURAL HIGHS
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry)
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17 The beach
18. Finding a 20 note in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair.
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and drinking your favorite tipple.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid. (which did NOT happen ;P)
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
42. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

*Which ones make your life worth living??*

girlnumber20 @ 11:05 PM | |

Saturday, May 10, 2003

the Smallville soundtrack rocks.. almost as much as Kristen Kreuk ( i'd like to wake up one day and look like her forever =>)

MUSICiLIKE: Time After Time -- Eva Cassidy ....talk about emotion..

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Turning in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback to warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories,
Time after

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you have said
And you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

:Chorus:
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

After your picture fades and darkness has
Turned to grey
Watching through windows I'm wondering
If you're OK
And you say go slow
I fall behind
The drum beats out of time

:Chorus:

mmm... time after time
Ooo... time after time
Time after time

girlnumber20 @ 12:17 AM | |

Tuesday, May 06, 2003

watching Real Madrid play some creepy team on star sports right now... purely because of morientes and cassillas... but the disgusting score is making me cringe... i dont even know the name of the other team thats doing this to em! ok now they show it... Mallorca... ;P *gGrrr...*

if i had a dick i'd probably know result of the match already.. but i don't so im just gonna keep watching and feel bad for my two studmuffins..

and I DONT LIKE YOU, ETO'O! or whatever ur wierdo name is!

girlnumber20 @ 7:43 AM | |

Monday, May 05, 2003

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

[Chorus]

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

[Chorus]

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

MUSICiLIKE: Unwell -- Matchbox 20
My favourite band... 'nuff said.

girlnumber20 @ 6:08 AM | |

i had i dream last night.. more like a nightmare... you see i dreamt that i was Pyro (my fave x-men dude right now)... and i was being tackled by a baddie in some confined and claustraphobic maze thinggy.. so NATURALLY i tried to use my pyromaniac powers lah.. there were actually sources of fire around me but i couldnt get the hang of manipulating it! like my eyes were lit up and i could draw out the flames but i just wasnt strong enough to "poof" it in the bad guy's face ... and the guy was laughing at me! saying "heh looks like your dumb mutant powers arent listening to you... muhahaha!" and i was so humiliated and scared too cuz he kept grabbing and tackling me while i kept trying to get free.. i actually woke up gasping for air with a post-2.4km run heartbeat... and i STILL thought it was real... too much X-Men, mil...

but what could i say? i was one of those pple who caught X2 the second day it came out.. with aaron, ken, koon and my bro travis... we even tolerated sitting in the 3rd row frm the front.. the actors look better this time around.. wolverine is forever sexy and cyclops is still hot.. but pyro (played by aaron stanford) is my babe now *gush*... that is until matrix reloaded comes out lah...

and of course i watched X-men on tv last night... followed by one of my favourite shows-- Jerry Maguire... i swear, that show is absolutely therapeutic.. makes you go "awwWw...!!!" i mean come on, tom cruise says "You.. complete me.."!!!! and when he stumbles into his career pits you just wanna pick him up and tell him 'that's ok! i still believe in you!' ...heh which i realise is exactly what renee zellweger's character did... someone said i look and act like her during the show... is that a good thing?? but the best part has got to be when she goes "I LOVE HIM" like 25 times right infront of a boxer-clad tom cruise... haha that expression on his face (and hers) were priceless...

aaron and i went to see the pet show at the stadium waterfront yesterday.. and the doggies were so cute!!!! now i want a golden retreiver... does anyone wanna give me one? hahaha but im quite sunburned now too.. my back is red and white striped... 2 white stripes from the straps of my shirt and one in the center from where my ponytail was... its quite pathetic..

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vice
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away

MUSICiLIKE: Secret Garden -- Bruce Springsteen, Jerry Maguire OST

girlnumber20 @ 6:02 AM | |

Don't pretend you weren't wondering..

Birthdate: 9 July 1984

msn: daydream247@hotmail.com

email: extraordinarymil@gmail.com

If you're my aquaintance and 'heard' frm somewhere that I 'look' Chinese but 'fake' an accent or something, I will explain now (though it's never once and for all): I'm an American born Chinese, my parents are Hongkongers. I was born in Chicago, raised in Hongkong till I was 5, moved to Boca Raton, Florida and stayed till I was 11, moved to Trophy Club, Texas and stayed till i was 13, moved to Singapore and have stayed there since. Throughout my preschool-univeristy life i have attended 13 schools so far. Was it tough? did it make me bitter? I dont think so, ask any of my friends.. or try and find someone who hates me.. *wink*