Saturday, December 28, 2002
Enjoy life. There's plenty of time to be dead.-Anon.
Aerodynamically, the bumble bee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumble bee doesn't know it so it goes on flying anyway.
-Mary Kay Ash
If you should die
before me, ask if you
could bring a friend.
-- Stone Temple Pilots
some pics i found... hee hee
I've been in hongkong for abt 2 days now.. and I don't think i've been so sick in years.. started with fever on christmas.. perhaps it was too much red wine at the christmas party.. or was my dad's friend's son too hot?? (haha im serious here.. ex- AC guy, posh, buff, cute, charming, aussie uni-undergrad... and he speaks chinese like me haha.. but dun go thinkin i was juz desperate/drunk/or anything cuz he's the one who initiated all the convos and insisted on teaching me how to play mahjong .. so Fiona, Steven, Ivan and me decided to try our hand at that noisy game only to find the adults smirking behind us and that we all suck pretty bad heh... but it was fun :) )
Anyway, back to me being sick... its freakin 7 degrees here in hongkong and my fingers are trembling over the keyboard.. doc says i've got bronchitis or lung infection... im not sure of the direct translation heh.. stayin at a super posh 6-star Shangri-la but thats abt all i see cuz every time i breathe in cold air from outside my throat hurts like its been bayonetted 3 inches.. (billy prior anyone?? hehe) I'm supposed to take abt 7 different medications but conscience tells me to juz take wat keeps me alive..
OK so im not abt to die.. juz real sick.. but hongkong really is awesome.. esp shopping.. so many different brands and designs that they dun have back in singapore.. even shops like mango, nike and ralph lauren have an extended collection of stuff i've never seen.. but it duzn't really concern me since they're all sellin winter clothes.. bleah.. but i love going out in all my leather coats/boots/and sweaters *grinz* bought new blush from maybelline (yup the one zhen recommended...) and it was less than 1/2 the price in s'pore okaaay???! now THAT'S cheap thrill
Went to renew my hongkong ID card yesterday and they put my bro and i in a room filled with peeps like me... little girls that look chinese but speak like harry potter.. 15/16 year old ABC's that u juz KNOW are wannabe LA hoodlums.. some other beautiful people that look like they just walked out frmo SoHo.. I guess this is the time of year when all 'hongkie' parents bring their 'whitewashed' kids back to visit their grannies..
Speaking of grannies.. i juz went over to see mine.. of there's all the "oh look at u now! .. getting more beautiful everyday.. dun seem to have grown much taller tho.. but thats ok.." haha and she gave me these 2 rings.. one diamond.. one pearl.. "since ur crazy generation duzn't seem to get hitched until the time u guys are 40 or sumthin.. I might as well give u these before i never see u again..." grandmothers...sigh .. they're so sweet :)
Monday, December 23, 2002
Feeling shitty again... i swear.. the 2 people that can make me feel lower than dirt are the two that put me on it.... "mildred u screwed up again.. i leave u with a little bit of responsibility and u screw it up.. u know why im so busy? cuz i always make sure everythings alright... i cant trust u with anything cuz u screw it up everytime.." Well if that's the case why the hell do you still make me do stuff for you? and since u're the one who raised me and won't let me do what i want, who do you think's to blame for this human piece of shit that is me??? What i'd like u to do is think about all the times that i actually did do something right but u took for granted and all those times that u made a mistake but i shut up abt it cuz i don't like to any ol' how put blame on people to make myself feel good..i know i know.. u think mil's gotta a problem now.. but its not true: it's either not a problem or i've always had this problem.. i dun care... ok maybe i should try and find out whats really bothering me.. actually i know what it is lah.. its cuz i interviewed to be a waitress at the new club Embassy today with Jen and Zhen.. really posh place (saw lynette, amrita and some other old rg girls there too).. i really think i got the job.. gut feeling from the interview.. and my parents won't let me do it.. "it's a dirty place.. filled with messed up people.. what kinda normal people stay out till 3am?" ugh... dad, u drive me crazy.. i feel knots forming in my head.. " dad i swear, the only things i'll be touchin are the plates" .. "I know, but how sure are u abt the things that are gonna touch you??" JEEEEZ!!! you win kay? you win.. here's another episode of mil watching another opportunity fly by.. and i heard life was short too... great.
Thursday, December 19, 2002
learned a new word today: "kismet" everyone was surprised when i din know it.... but no one taught me wad... lynn said it means like fate.. destiny..or something like that hmm.. i guess i dun get to choose who i have a kismet with huh?? i wonder..... perhaps my kismet guy is wondering too...hmm...
Tuesday, December 17, 2002
Juz came back from Bugis.. watched Ser, Jen and Zhen sweat it out in their *first* Step aerobics class in Amore.. haha ( ok.. ok.. Im joining already...!) I can't wait to try the kickboxing class.. havent fought with someone since i quit taekwondo...and I miss it ;P haha.. OK juz got off the phone with nat and realized that we really have to do our US uni applications already.. esp since ive been rejected from Chicago!.. yes.. now everyone knows hmm.. ok lets not waste anymore time surfing ard now Mil.. work work work!!!made 2 new "albums" haha:
[MIL_CD#18:Rain.]
[MIL_MD#19:Soul by Strings]
Monday, December 16, 2002
" just as soon as I belong..... then it's time i disappear....." - Metallicacome to think of it, that is how my life's been..
Sunday, December 15, 2002
Here's something sandra took from dawn and Im gonna take from sandra (ok maybe not "take".. "share" because i think its really worth sharing.. something we can all relate to):***: but sometimes living them once is not enough you don't want that one experience, because it leaves you wanting more. and perhaps you'd have been better off not having experience it at all so you wouldn't even be wanting it in the first place you don't want it just once, you want it forever, or however long forever might be, which is never really forever.
MUSICiLIKE: "Clueless" -Pay the Girl ... "Everything" -Pacifier ..and "Slow Down" - by Wayne ( i think)
actually the entire Swimfan soundtrack is pretty good... almost done downloading the album * grinZ*
next KaZaA mission:: 8 MiLe OST...
Serena's in town!!! poor babe.. schedules packed to the brim.. hope she make a slot free for me!
Watched 'the empire strikes back' tonight... still dun understand how those freaks in the 80's can get so hyped over a 'kinda cheap' production like that.. perhaps it was the concept.. or maybe we're just a really spoiled generation..
Anyway.. I think Jonathon Taylor Thomas is gonna grow up to look like Harrison Ford.. they're identical.
din do much today.. walked down to the waterfront before dinner.. The lights were pretty. people were so lovey-dovey.. u feel happy for them.. bought two pretty scarf/shawl lookin things.. dunno when i'll ever use em.. Ooh and juz when i was rushin off to the restroom cuz i had to pee really bad, i heard my name.. haha.. its jared and some other AA1 peeps.. wish our class had cool outings like that..
Juz finished watchin Mad City.. Hoffman and Travolta.. real actors.. think i'll go to sleep now. Good night, world.
Saturday, December 14, 2002
REAL funny stuff from Becca (one of my bestest buds in Texas! *grinz*) juz sit down and get ready to laugh!:The following excerpts are actual answers given on history tests and in Sunday school quizzes by children between fifth and 6th grade ages in Ohio. They were collected over a period of three years by two teachers.
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Ancient Egypt was old. It was inhabited by gypsies and mummies who all wrote in hydraulics. They lived in the Sarah Dessert. The climate of the Sarah is such that all the inhabitants have to live elsewhere.
Moses led the Hebrew slaves to the Red Sea where they made unleavened bread, which is bread made without any ingredients. Moses went up on Mount Cyanide to get the ten commandos. He died before he ever reached Canada but the commandos made it.
Solomon had three hundred wives and seven hundred porcupines. He was a actual hysterical figure as well as being in the bible. It sounds like he was sort of busy too.
The Greeks were a highly sculptured people, and without them we wouldn't have history. The Greeks also had myths. A myth is a young female moth.
Socrates was a famous old Greek teacher who went around giving people advice. They killed him. He later died from an overdose of wedlock which is apparently poisonous. After his death, his career suffered a dramatic decline.
In the first Olympic games, Greeks ran races, jumped, hurled biscuits, and threw the java. The games were messier then than they show on tv now.
Julius Caesar extinguished himself on the battlefields of Gaul. The Ides of March murdered him because they thought he was going to be made king. Dying, he gasped out: "Same to you, Brutus."
Joan of Arc was burnt to a steak and was canonized by Bernard Shaw for reasons I don't really understand. The English and French still have problems.
Queen Elizabeth was the "Virgin Queen," As a queen she was a success. When she exposed herself before her troops they all shouted "hurrah!" and that was the end of the fighting for a long while.
It was an age of great inventions and discoveries. Gutenberg invented removable type and the Bible. Another important invention was the circulation of blood.
Sir Walter Raleigh is a historical figure because he invented cigarettes and started smoking.
The greatest writer of the Renaissance was William Shakespeare. He was born in the year 1564, supposedly on his birthday. He never made much money and is famous only because of his plays. He wrote tragedies, comedies,and hysterectomies, all in Islamic pentameter.
Romeo and Juliet are an example of a heroic couple. They lived in Italy. Romeo's last wish was to be laid by Juliet but her father was having none of that that I'm sure. You know how Italian fathers are.
Writing at the same time as Shakespeare was Miguel Cervantes. He wrote Donkey Hote. The next great author was John Milton. Milton wrote Paradise Lost. Since then no one ever found it.
Delegates from the original 13 states formed the Contented Congress. Thomas Jefferson, a Virgin, and Benjamin Franklin were two singers of the Declaration of Independence. Franklin discovered electricity by rubbing two cats backward and also declared, "A horse divided against itself cannot stand." He was a naturalist for sure. Franklin died in 1790 and is still dead.
Abraham Lincoln became America's greatest Precedent. Lincoln's mother died in infancy, and he was born in a log cabin which he built with his own hands. Abraham Lincoln freed the slaves by signing the Emasculation Proclamation.
On the night of April 14, 1865, Lincoln went to the theater and got shot in his seat by one of the actors in a moving picture show. They believe the assinator was John Wilkes Booth, a supposingly insane actor. This ruined Booth's career.
Johann Bach wrote a great many musical compositions and had a large number of children. In between he practiced on an old spinster which he kept up in his attic. Bach died from 1750 to the present. Bach was the most famous composer in the world and so was Handel. Handel was half German, half Italian, and half English. He was very large.
Beethoven wrote music even though he was deaf. He was so deaf that he wrote loud music and became the father of rock and roll. He took long walks in the forest even when everyone was calling for him. Beethoven expired in 1827 and later died for this.
The nineteenth century was a time of a great many thoughts and inventions. People stopped reproducing by hand and started reproducing by machine. The invention of the steamboat caused a network of rivers to spring up.
Cyrus McCormick invented the McCormick raper, which did the work of a hundred men.
Louis Pasteur discovered a cure for rabbits but I don't know why.
Charles Darwin was a naturalist. He wrote the Organ of the Species. It was very long people got upset about it and had trials to see if it was really true. He sort of said God's days were not just 24 hours but without watches who knew anyhow? I don't get it.
Madman Curie discovered radio. She was the first woman to do what she did. Other women have become scientists since her but they didn't get to find radios because they were already taken.
Karl Marx was one of the Marx Brothers. The other three were in the movies. Karl made speeches and started revolutions. Someone in the family had to have a job, I guess.
Sir Francis Drake circumcised the world with a 100 foot clipper which was very dangerous to all his men.
Why love is like Haagen Daaz ice cream:
hmm.. cuz it tastes like Heaven while you're having it.. but when u've reached the bottom of the tub (or worse someone comes btw u and ur Daaz and snatches it away).. you obviously feel the loss.. you feel incomplete and sucky. You think abt that sweet fuzzy feeling it once gave you... and you want it back (maybe the same flavour.. maybe not.. depends..) You want it back to taste that same sweetness forever.. never end. But you're bound to get sick of one flavour if you taste it forever right? Maybe thats why there're different flavours.. different types of guys... Does that mean we gotta taste all of em to finally decide on ONE?? the one flavour you wanna live for.. cuz it makes u feel like Heaven no matter where you taste it, when you taste it, why you taste it and how many times you've tasted it. I guess when u and ur partner have found each other over that one flavour.. you guys are soulmates.. (maybe thats why lovers always share ice cream :) .. ) Well i obviously haven't found my one flavour yet... (im still in love with so many u see: strawberry.. chocolate.. cookie dough.. vanilla.. butter pecan.. coffee.. green tea.. cookies and cream.. and there're still so many that i havent tried nor even heard of before! .. I only know that its definetely not rocky road or rum&raisin ... ) Guess I oughta be more adventurous when ordering ice cream now *grinz*
Oh and it's "Haagen Daaz" in particular cuz that determines the calibre of the ice cream.. hehehehe
Everyone's lovesick: he's lovesick, she's lovesick, you're lovesick, I'm lovesick-- the whole world's lovesick... and if they're not lovesick, they're lovers that exist in some other dimension altogether... not on this shitty stone cold lonely playground. No actually they're juz all snuggled up in the esplanade (aka the freakin Savage Wonderland.. "Find a bench, hold on tight and enjoy the ride!"...sheesh)
Friday, December 13, 2002
Damn... I really miss ACJC... it's not juz the people or the building or the lectures alone (hell no...) but it's all of that together.. the feel of friends, aquaintances and *crushes* all rushing off to class together.. fooling around recess together.. skipping class together... getting freaked out by marhaini and creffield together... geddit?? it's the TOGETHER part.. its not like normal school hols when we know there's 4 amy ng essays due at the end of it.. this time, u can't see the end.. nothing ties us back anymore.. guys will probably see each other in NS.. girls are juz kinda on their own.. starting over again.. I feel kinda lost now.. like there're things to do but no deadlines.. i kinda wake up each day juz to see how it'll turn out... i miss school lah... *pout* think im in one of those sappy nostalgic moods now... feel sick.. been crawling around town for days.. will puke if i see it again.. met up with alota old friends too i guess.. but noone ever seems to have a more creative suggestion besides 'orchard'..ugh. Bought myself a new eyeshadow from esprit tdy... thats a grand total of 3 since hols started.. got a new top too... shit i need to find myself some cash. which sounds better: selling tickets and popcorn at cineleisure? or surveying in the library at the esplanade??yeah I went to check out those lil durians tdy.. they're beautiful.. it was drizzling.. but i stood outside anyway.. saw things from this side of the river.. the water seems alot closer.. u can hear it lapping against the steel.. like its almost at ur feet.. its stronger than how its like back home.. angrier.. wilder.. but its the same water, right? maybe cuz it was raining.. maybe cuz it was windy.. my hair was flying all over the place.. but i didnt care.. i didnt know anyone in sight anyway.. and they didnt know me.
Tuesday, December 10, 2002
Got back from prom this morning.... one of the mega highlights of studying 2 yrs in JC... yeah i guess i had fun.. dressed up in nice clothes.. twisted hair into pretty knots... shiny make up.. sharing a room and helping everyone else glam up... but i felt something missing last night... something that i probably anticiapated subconciously but dun think i've fulfilled.. like i let an oppurtunity slip away.. ( its ok if it makes no sense to you.. cuz it duz for me.. like jo said: Who defines "sense" anyway?.. i express things here to explain things to myself.. not to you ;P haha) There were so many decisions to make... and each one seemed to mean a sacrifice of something else that matters to me... Im not gonna ask why can't everything just be perfect... but i do wonder what i should do to make the best of it without entirely losing myself in the process... sometimes i feel like i live my life for other people.. to satisfy them.. to entertain them.. I know that i have no obligation to do so, but wierdly i dun seem to mind.. perhaps it's cuz im not too sure what I really want myself.. I don't know. Ser thinks Im juz a walking bag of guilt.. says im " lil' miss problematic feel-bad mil" ... I feel absolutely fine when im in front of everyone.. i smile.. laugh.. they laugh.. everyones happy ryte? .. then i sit down and think.. and all these lost emotions start throwing themselves up inside me.. i can't understand them.. i can't control them.. they control me.. they make me confused.. in fact i realized that im confused alot... but when im not, i know exactly what i want.. i get headaches.. the doc calls em migraines and gives me pills for them... how long do i have to keep taking them pills?ok on a lighter note.. *this morning* hehe also markes the first chapter in my history of clubbing.. hahaa... yup i'm a newbie but shasha said I was "quite pro" okaaay?! haha wish u cud've seen me groove Ser.. haha but u were too busy doing "wad couples do'.. haha.. Yup actually i told myself that i wudn't go.. that id stay with ser and sam... so i watched the bboss gang slip into their sexy threads and confidently bid them goodbye.. then in the lobby i saw HIM.. told me he was going clubbing.. and my mind went 180... ( i don't even know why.. Im not even supposed to like him.. in fact it was recently that he put my mind in a mess *sigh*..) yeah so i went up the lift with Ser, Darren n Sam... but I think i left my heart in the lobby.... only chance i've ever gotten.. the last AC party for our batch... goin with my girlfriends.. everybodys going.. Decision: i need to go clubbing.. tonight. But all my roomates left on a cab already- so what do i do? Beg sam to call shaun. Tell him I dun wanna go alone. Five mins later: Im dressed and and sitting next to lionel kong, kaveh and shaun flaming down to Illusions.. Luck was on myside: free entry! and all my girly pals were right there wating for me, jen and sha flashing beautiful smiles *grinz*. Dance floor was packed.. I bet I was stiff at first.. then everything sunk in- the heat, the sweat, the music, the bass, the lights- i let myself go. Some indian guy started dancing with me. i dun think i knew him but i juz went along u know? then he started touching me and stuff.. and I was grossed out.. think i threw his pervert hands back on his own hips.. I learned that people jz start barging into u when u dance.. zhen pulled me away frm that guy.. had some fun dancing with kaveh, ivan and tits ( who kept making fun of me and tried to dance at my 'height'.. haha) yeah so that was clubbing for me..
Sunday, December 08, 2002
Don't pretend you weren't wondering..
Birthdate: 9 July 1984
msn: daydream247@hotmail.com
email: extraordinarymil@gmail.com
If you're my aquaintance and 'heard' frm somewhere that I 'look' Chinese but 'fake' an accent or something, I will explain now (though it's never once and for all): I'm an American born Chinese, my parents are Hongkongers. I was born in Chicago, raised in Hongkong till I was 5, moved to Boca Raton, Florida and stayed till I was 11, moved to Trophy Club, Texas and stayed till i was 13, moved to Singapore and have stayed there since. Throughout my preschool-univeristy life i have attended 13 schools so far. Was it tough? did it make me bitter? I dont think so, ask any of my friends.. or try and find someone who hates me.. *wink*
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